Thursday, June 28, 2012

He's always there :)

*Thinking Cap on * How did time flew by so fast between my last post and now?

How are you lovely blogger and readers doing? Hope the summer is going fabulous especially for everyone who was in school throughout the year. On my end everything have been going fabulous and looking back now I see that I have come very far in the last few months.

If you have been following my blog for a long time you would notice that my blogging trend dropped in a way. Rewinding back to march I had a terrible terrible emotional breakdown that changed the way I was approaching things in life and view about myself and what not. For some people who can read in between the line I hinted here and here and then like 10 draft post that I never publish just because I did not want to be overly negative on here or have a pity party. It all started with losing a friend and then a million other things follow one by one after the other. Now when I love, I love with my whole heart and therefore when I'm broken the heart is broken into a million pieces and therefore every other little damage makes the matter worst...Imagine this was just for a close friend what will happen if this one was hubby eh? lol. Anyway sha I will spare all the negative parts but it Got to a point when I would open my bible and the tears just roll down non-stop, any little thing will just make me cry a river, and even praying or listening to God speak was just a hassle or pointless. (hence another reasons I posted less)

I don't even know how but somewhere somehow just about last month my joy came back all again with a million things happening at ones and all unexpected open doors in different areas. The most amazing one was that my Sophomore year my faculty advisor told me I should switch my major otherwise I might not make it through if I continued at the rate I was at the time. Mind you this was a Nigerian professor on campus that I saw as my father on campus. Somehow somewhere God never put me to shame because I made it through 4.5 yrs as an EE major and had the privilege to sit on the podium along with 13 other students been honored during the 2900+ graduating student's ceremony. Seeing my parents, pastors and the rest of the family smile on that day lifted my soul and reminded me that I can do all things through Christ who strengthen me. Sadly the person who made me become an engineer did not live to witness this day but I know he would have been very proud of me. To top it off I got a Graduate Internship in Florida with all housing, and relocation expenses paid for. God knew that I really needed some alone time in a place far far away where I know no soul. Its been a few weeks now and I can say sometimes I miss home and not having my friends around to hang out with but I am really learning more about myself and growing.

Anyway sha enough of my story, all I have learned in this past months is when it comes to a situation where you cannot even get yourself to ask for God's help, tell someone to help. My mom was my helper all along. She is a fire fire woman and you don't mess with her and her prayers, She was on her knees on my behalf everyday and I have seen God works miraculous works through her many many times and He did not fail this time :)

I'd like to say every breakdown is an opportunity to rise and shine again to the highest height. This post is dedicated to anyone going through one thing or the other that they think they can't get up again. Even when we fall to our lowest level He still lifts us up and reminds us that we are not alone in this. I was not going to post this today but decided to share hoping at an individual will read this.  

A word for you - “It is the Lord who goes before you. He will be with you; he will not fail you or forsake you. Do not fear or be dismayed. ” -Deuteronomy 31:8


It is only a fool that says there is no God :)